to save it all, separate the one…deviated insight….

Blog rebirth day one March 20th 2017 2:47 a.m.


Should I separate myself from myself in order to save myself ?

Now this is a question I posed to myself but posted on Facebook and I got interesting responses one being ‘if you do that how do you know yourself’ the other is ‘get rid of the one you no longer know.’  Now this is a process of thought in my head for a while, I actually wrote a poem on it called “what separates the two” now a lot of people will/have read ‘what separates the two’ and think it’s about a relationship of two people but it’s not it’s about separating yourself from the person you no longer are. A look into Accountability in perspective of ourselves.

As for the relationship aspect well… it’s all bullshit it’s all just smoking mirrors over time life weaves what it weaves.   we have to face and accept these things or it blows up and then you end up with resentment and sorrow that’s tragically fucking retarded

one fact is guaranteed we all  change it’s going to happen we have to decide whether we’re going to accept and evolve to it and when you have people in your life that are like me fucked in the head things don’t change normally by any standard I’ve always been an open book on my shade of strange

Just like anything in life it’s work we have to decide what works,  is it worth it, is it connected properly, can we thrive without it, without it is life ascertainable?

Now I know the answer to these questions that does not mean I am in the position with myself too relay these answers now. why wedges and lines are drawn really baffles me, Especially when so much time invested …..

listen here’s the thing it’s not a cubicle everyone finds themselves in But we experience the prism in wandering there regardless.

Back to the separation it’s a task of great proportion and works in the same principle as my deviation does and especially since acceptance of fault is prime. I just wasn’t to get happy again and see those around me the same….it starts in the mirror.

Thats all th dribble fom Spital for now …..peace




Passion of a Dark Artist

Passion of dark artist


I’ll always had a mind for Darkness,  my pen is drawn to it as are my heart and soul. I am a fragment amongst the shadows. As a youth I only knew morbid twisted darkness that lacked substance and cohesion. Time has proven my standing behind age is experience, it is wisdom, as my writes and illustrations have evolved into refined works of tangible procurements. I have yet to find my following but am gaining some recognition.


The years turning have given me the ability to write dark poetry that can engage life’s morbid states and make them beautiful collections of depravity. I have embraced debauchery and deviance as my second skin and it’s a suit that fits well.My illustrations as well have encompassed this direction in marvelous fashion often depicting sorrow and frustrations demeanor in expressionistic surreal hues.


I was recently inquired on whether writing in such unsavory escapades brings me to acting or being filled with the desire to do so. I first have to reiterate a strong stance I have in defense of writing, creating on any medium such dark artistry which is :   

    One- if more people would allow themselves to revel in the seedy deplorable instances of the mind we all face regularly in some fashion we would not see such incorrigible acts committed in our society today. The blindsided moral and social expectations of the herd are not tangible and those motherfuckers act out in heinous ways you just don’t see the wrongs committed by wealth.

     Secondly I have spent most my life living my art instead of creating it in many ways and it has run its course as I failed to create anything but insanity in those moments of life. I am about-face with creating constructively that which is the part of my essence and burden. Cracked minds avail best in retrospect, hindsight and humility…though not a poster child for reform i attempt productivity without causing resentment the best i can.

So acceptance of things done, attributes gained and the quirks of my deviancy flourishing have allowed me to embrace the dark artist in me which has always sought out and admired those before and amongst me. I love the challenge to walk the line and have people experience the further of that which is looming with me, through my creations. To have someone get on board and taste the atrocious. agonizing, sorrow filled chalice and come back from the brink with a new perspective and respect for that which is so common in life but not geared for such engagement is a gift, honor and privilege to own.

until the next dribble spitals go out seek the “new era” of dark arts and embrace the depths of divine obscurity and sinister instigations…..


Growing up in the frying pan…sinister productions clips wings

So we have progressed in our flailing inertia, despite the scrapes, bruises and such evolution pulls us through to find new direction and purpose in our formidable stance to bring new lumination to the spoken word arena deviantly so in the raw n relentless that splits caps and gives you the solace once lacked. We are grateful for insight and critique delivered with good intention n respect ((Sylvia))

Get on board and ride it like you live it, wild n free….openly embrace the debauchery

Point if there is one

kind of fitting this first went out blank….isnt it all? i’m just losing assurance in everything i am, do and love…started again to assemble my chapbbok for submission…six pages in ‘why bother?’ i know a lot of my issues stem from mental health, pain and not dealing with either. I’m not affected as most by the commercialized silver fallacy hysteria the sheep are herded by.. its diagnosed fæct i’m fucked in many ãn instance, however when those around you only want to point fingers and ignore their influence upon behaviorãl spikes….well its a gnawing instance of deplorable refrain..such refrain i’m waning and its got me thinking helium dreams of floating the river styx….

Rare Political Spytal

I am not one to wax very much on the political side, in fact if anything I will site ant-politics rhetoric before stating the obvious which is we as Americans are fortunate to have the freedoms we do and the thought of freedoms we actually don’t. So here we find ourselves in the dawn of the latest presidential elections and go figure the nations up in arms and finger pointing and hate, stupid shit falls all around us. This doesn’t surprise me as the Propaganda machine (news, polls,policing,etc) that is the govts feeding tube of the not capable to think for themselves, question and take proactive stances (ie the sheep) has been full throttle more so than usual since the candidate race took full swing.

I nearly posted a blog piece on this and damn now have to say again “Accountability must Be now” first as individuals and then as a social conscious aimed and demanding those appointed to serve/protect and govern this nation do so sweepingly. Thus restoring faith and credit in the system at current falling apart. So let us just hang on accountability on the social tier and in the coming paragraph find the reason we are faced with what’s to come and why the state of action by finger pointers, etc..etc is erroneously false and exactly what the system wants.

We are not in voting for President actually voting for said candidate. You may thank the electoral college which was conceived in the 1700’s to 1: make sure the incapable population didn’t muck elections via uneducated votes and 2; allow smaller states a sway against larger populated ones. Now changes have been made over time to allow modern civilization a prevalent pull yet your vote actually delegates the electoral trustees for said state to vote on it’s behalf. Many states have amended ind. Constitutions to require the “:popular” or majority vote be upheld, yet faithless ballots have been cast and again we have seen the majority lose.

Why has it lost and what’s to the “why vote it doesn’t matter” ideology. Well thats a redundancy in itself now huh?! 90 million less voters turned out this Presidential election then 2012. Larger states get more electoral votes due to appointed political representatives. So even though the democratic vote pulled more, it did no such thing in the larger states.

The short and blunt is, People have stopped giving two shits, are allowing the system as now spun by the powers that be, whom dont hold a national voice as we are to goddamn divided and indifferent to be a nation for a people by a people. Society is shattered into sects of classicism, race, sexual orientation, religion etc. etc and the man has been fueling the firs in which the blinders just feed it. You wanna take a stance you want to make a difference? Start in the mirror then start in your neighborhood, use social media for launching positive informative relations, worthy debate that has no venom but seeks to address and inform.

Humanity and civilized social growth is in our own hands, if we dont grab the reigns it will be in theirs and this world has had enough tragedy to sink a million souls ten fold..Be a part of change, solution and growth or get back in a hole and bid your time.

Links to facts used in researching my voicing of thought: plus each link has others etc

Indepth yet brief look into Electoral is found in reading the entire set

Scientific detour as States blindly prosecute?!

Crazy shit man I’m a far better, aware and calm driver when high! Some people are stupid but punish everyone? Marijuana has been egregiously slandered since the lumber company realized hemp was far more efficient, cheaper and abundant. (without damaging the environment) Then came the drug comp..etc etc,,,

Article snippets on state laws for under pot influenced driving, testing blood levels:

That makes no sense, said Mark A. R. Kleiman, a New York University professor specializing in issues involving drugs and criminal policy. “A law against driving with THC in your bloodstream is not a law you can know you are obeying except by never smoking marijuana or never driving,” he said.

Studies show that using marijuana and driving roughly doubles the risk of a crash, Kleiman said. By comparison, talking on a hands-free cellphone while driving – legal in all states – quadruples crash risk, he said. A blood alcohol content of .12, which is about the median amount in drunken driving cases, increases crash risk by about 15 times, he said.

Driving with “a noisy child in the back of the car” is about as dangerous as using marijuana and driving, Kleiman said.

I put this together months ago and not going to even read it or edit as its simple Green is go, alcohol should be illegal and smoke legal, some people shouldnt do any substance, for many its a great help….if your a dumb ass and get high and can’t drive then u go to jail or crash, hopefully not harming anyone but yourself and die(some people deserve too) or go to jail get nixed from weed and driving. It’s not rocket science its not inebriation like booze and people need to be responsible and accountable.

I do strongly agree the course at the time I saw this article states were opting is fucked and not responsible,,lead wise and the mass will follow or play along to keep the shit quelled. Plus next time I’m fiding the article on the Senators/lawmakers who are stoic in stance that Shoplifting from Wal-mart be a minor infracture, its true they are a continuing  and major player in the working class being fucked in America…..Sam Walton is rolling people..